Screw up!

I am really sorry baby. I know we got back after being through such a tough time. I know i cant be like him. Do you in my heart how does it feels, when i am being compared to him this and that? It simply sucks and it makes me useless, really useless! I am not blaming you baby. BUT ONLY MYSELF. I know we love each other. I really love you with everything i had. But i know you just cant feel how i love you. I really put my heart out in loving you, not just words but actions and everything. I know i really screwed up these few days, but being back with you it pull me back together slowly. I really put in effort in proving to you even till this very day baby. It's not that i am back with you i stop what i am supposed to do. I trying my best in everything i do for you baby. You are really my priority. Please dont ever compare me and him already. I admit i lose, but i am trying my best to be your dream guy. Your reply and everything just cut open the wounds again. I didnt know that you wished for that. I am really guilty and sorry baby for treating you like that these few days. But please note that i am really sorry and i really putting a lot a lot of effort in loving you. It is really not about putting up a front for you to see, it is really from my heart baby. I am sorry for hurting you baby. PLEASE FORGIVE ME? I am really scare baby. SORRY BABY!! I should know have sold the phone off. I really dont know what am i doing baby. At that time, i really mentally and physically breakdown. I seriously dont know why i sold the phone off when it is really dearest to me. It isnt just a phone it holds a value. A value that money cant pay off. I am really sorry baby, i should not have done that. I am really feeling very very very guilty and scare and worried. I am not thinking well that time baby. I am really sorry baby.