HOW DOES IT FEEL WHEN YOU ARE BLAMED FOR SOMETHING YOU DID NOT COMMIT?
SERIOUSLY!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!
why didn't i break my spine when i fall? when didn't i hit my head when i fall? all this won't be happening.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
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When you really put in effort to do things for your love, booking goes wrong, follow the right sets of instructions but everything goes hay wire.
She just take it as you never put in a single effort.
Instead of comforting you, ("is ok, don't worry, we will find it"), all you get is a black face and silent treatment.
Finally found the place, settled down and had dinner. She just can't wait to leave. Her eyes roam all over the place except me. Her attention is on her iphone and not me. Her tears keep rolling down from her eyes, giving the impression that I cause her to cry. Tweets send from her iphone telling the world that her valentine day is fuck up.
Did she even take into consideration how i feel? All my efforts to make my gf happy and feel special on that day, all went down the drain. All the anguish, the pressure she puts on me, the sadness, the cold treatment she giving me. Did she even think of how i feel? Did she even calm down and think properly? I doubt so. Just this setback, which attracted all the previous problems in her mind.
Now who the one suffering, well she will be saying her cuz she is holding on to all my nonsense for so long. Yes i agree. Am i putting in effort in the relationship? Yes, i putting 500% more than usual. Must she set her expectations high? Yes, our relationship is already 5 years plus. Did she ever think of even the simplest thing can be really good enough? I doubt so. She is expecting a lot from me. I know, there is a lot pressure on me always. I doing my best to do what ever i can to make her happy. No matter how much i do she ok with it. No encouragement from her. I don't think she even think of how i feel, what i am going through.
There are so many times, that i wish i can end my own life. Saving her from all this misery i am giving to her. But i can't. I love her too much, she means everything to me. I cant bear to leave her. I never one to leave her either. Promises and actions have been carried out, sometimes she is still not happy with it. What can i do? I can just die right? I do not have the courage to do so. Should i just jump down? Silt my throat and bleed to death? or just drive my car straight off the highway? I don't know how long can i last, I am sorry for what happen on v day. Just put all the blame on me, nothing but me, booking screwed up by people also me. All me. Apologize and wanna set things right yet another cold treatment. How long will this last? Have you ever think about how i feel? I know everything have to be you, nothing be you. I am a human too.
I am sorry.
if i could turn back time, i would make you the most happiest and blissful girl in the world.
She just take it as you never put in a single effort.
Instead of comforting you, ("is ok, don't worry, we will find it"), all you get is a black face and silent treatment.
Finally found the place, settled down and had dinner. She just can't wait to leave. Her eyes roam all over the place except me. Her attention is on her iphone and not me. Her tears keep rolling down from her eyes, giving the impression that I cause her to cry. Tweets send from her iphone telling the world that her valentine day is fuck up.
Did she even take into consideration how i feel? All my efforts to make my gf happy and feel special on that day, all went down the drain. All the anguish, the pressure she puts on me, the sadness, the cold treatment she giving me. Did she even think of how i feel? Did she even calm down and think properly? I doubt so. Just this setback, which attracted all the previous problems in her mind.
Now who the one suffering, well she will be saying her cuz she is holding on to all my nonsense for so long. Yes i agree. Am i putting in effort in the relationship? Yes, i putting 500% more than usual. Must she set her expectations high? Yes, our relationship is already 5 years plus. Did she ever think of even the simplest thing can be really good enough? I doubt so. She is expecting a lot from me. I know, there is a lot pressure on me always. I doing my best to do what ever i can to make her happy. No matter how much i do she ok with it. No encouragement from her. I don't think she even think of how i feel, what i am going through.
There are so many times, that i wish i can end my own life. Saving her from all this misery i am giving to her. But i can't. I love her too much, she means everything to me. I cant bear to leave her. I never one to leave her either. Promises and actions have been carried out, sometimes she is still not happy with it. What can i do? I can just die right? I do not have the courage to do so. Should i just jump down? Silt my throat and bleed to death? or just drive my car straight off the highway? I don't know how long can i last, I am sorry for what happen on v day. Just put all the blame on me, nothing but me, booking screwed up by people also me. All me. Apologize and wanna set things right yet another cold treatment. How long will this last? Have you ever think about how i feel? I know everything have to be you, nothing be you. I am a human too.
I am sorry.
if i could turn back time, i would make you the most happiest and blissful girl in the world.
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