Day 37

What is my purpose in life now? That was what she asked me yesterday. I couldnt say out at all in front of her. My purpose in life now is to win her heart back. I want to build good close ties with her. I want to prove to her that i am no longer who i am before. This are my main purposes in life now. I get afford to lose her any more now. I am too pathetic now, nothing is important to me except her. If is possible i must get to officer cadet school in ns, i want get in ntu as well. But she is my main priority now. I want her back! I need her back! It is not the emptiness feeling in my heart, it is love! My heart is filled with pain and regrets now. I can only do this much for now. Only when she is back, then i can be back to myself eventually. I can never forgive myself for what i done to her before. Haii. This is the worst period of my life.