More heartaches

It's call breakup when it's broken. But it takes two to clap, takes two to tango. I want to repair the relationships, but she does not want to. No matter how i try to savage and all is still useless. How am i going to take back my love when she is the one holding such a big piece of my heart. Everyday i am drowned in my sorrows. I dont eat much sleep much, spent long hours thinking of her and all. I cant even help it when i am outside with my friends. I guess the best way to stop it is to let something heavy and smash on my head and crack my skull, so that i can forget everything instantly. Or i rather get knocked down by a car and remain in coma state forever. I really need her back. But it is impossible. She is out there enjoying herself with him where i am stranded here forever suffering in agony. I only can blame myself for all this things that are happening now. What doesnt kills you makes you stronger. But this is not happening at all, what doesnt kills me makes me weaker. I rather be killed than to be weaken daily. She cares for me, as in really from her heart she cares about me, or she pity me for i have become? I dont know at all. Times like this my life really doesnt even matter at all. Seeing the person you loved the most doing all the things you dont except at all, just kill me slowly. I rather opt for a fast death. When you really lose a person you loved, you will regret whatever you did to her before. I regretted and i am feeling very guilty for my doings. I cant even forgive myself for what i done. The guilt, the regrets, the pain i bear are too much. I need her back to love her like i never did before, so that all this shit i am feeling will be gone. If not nothing really matters more than my life now.

When in a relationship, dont ever buy your loved one footwear as he or she will run away to other people. This taboo has happened. And it happened to me.