Day 40 & 41

Doubt holds you landlocked in paralysis unable to move either way. The time you spent doubting is the time you are not alive. So, rid yourself of the doubt, take that step one way or another, your heart knows what is best, but take it right now. What am i suppose to do now. I seriously dont know what to do at all. My heart is set for her. Watch her spending her happy life with another guy just hurt me way so much. I have no choice but go through this shit just to wait for her. I have lost but why am i not raising the flag white?