Day 52

Do you know the feeling of waiting? The feeling of agony and anxiety? Yes. That is the feeling when i waited for her message. I rather keep myself awake and wake up extra early just to talk to her. I guess one day without her messages, i will good as dead. I mean real dead. I dont even know if i really stand a chance getting her back and all. All i had been doing each day is just praying hard for her return. The connection i felt when we got back together the second time, I knew she is the one there wont be others. SHE IS DEFINITELY THE ONE! My heart knows it the best. I am really an ass hole, i did so much foolish things to ruin our relationship. Now i am calling out to FATE, to bring us back again. No matter what i need to do to get her back, i will do it i swear. Even doing things that ruin my dignity and all, i am willing to do. So much of sufferings a little more doesnt matter at all. She has been the one giving all the long, if i get her back i definitely give my love to her non stop. Bits of me is disappearing each day, i dont know how long can i take it and how long my body can take it too. Haii. I am missing her badly, extremely badly.