Dead and gone?

Does she still love me? If i really disappear from this world will she sense it? Blood stream down from my nose for no reason today. Well, i think i know what is going to happen soon. SHIT ASS BODY! Muscle strain again. TOTAL LOSER. Body is failing me, everything is failing. To end or not to end. One shit whole week to more sufferings, to end it there or end it now? Haii. I cant stand any shit already. I rather be dead and gone. Without her, things just dont go the way they should. Never a girl make me do such things. Guess she is the one and only.