Day 25

Yesterday marks the day where she ends her exams. Did we talk? Yes. But is about work stuff. Why cant things just go back to normal? Where we use to talk about everything under the sun. Did we meet? No. Even if i ask her out, she will just reject me. I dont have the guts to ask her out, she will simply reject me i think. Haii. Things settle down then talk to me? That will be when? Years later? Months later? Days later? I am losing her already, which i cant afford any further. But why? Is it really a clean cut? Is it really an end to us? I dont want to end it. I cant savage anything already. I am helpless already. What can i do now? Move on is not a choice to me. I only want her back with me but what ever i do is just useless. She is my everything. I learnt a very important lesson, always treasure your loved one no matter what. I should never take the slightest thing for granted, dont wait till you regret then you start to treasure your love one. Haii. Heartache is the word to describle the state i am in. But the feeling i just dont know how to explain it. I am the one to be blame for all this and I am really sorry for what i done. I really need her back badly.