Why?

I cant believe the fact that when she broke up her heart do not have even the little tiniest ounce of love in it? Why didnt i answer her sos calls earlier? Why? Why did i regret so much now? The girl of my dreams is just gone like that. She didnt msg me at all, she have no idea what happen today or she is busy? So much things happened today. And now things got worst, will she be there for me when in that time to come? I guess she is busy. Busy with M and studies. What can i do if she does not want to fulfill our pact? I cant do anything at all. Is she just promising me just to promise me? Or had they talked things into her mind? Or is she busy? How would I know? I have to blame myself for all this. What can i do now? Who is able to tell me what to do next? Is this happening temporary or for real? The love really gone? REALLY GONE? Not even a tiny single ounce of it? Why am i so stupid and insensitive? WHY? Why did i ran away when she call for sos. Why i leave things unsolved? I chose to run away because i didnt want my temper to make it worst. Haii. Did she think about all the things we been through for so long before ending it? Will she come back soon to me? Why is she blinded by them? I simply dont know. I feel so regretful and remorse now. FATE show me a miracle. Bring her back to me soon. My heart cant take it any longer.