Why the need to do all this?

Guess what J replied? Ge think he is so so so great? Trying to wake me up? What the point of waking me up, when i am already?

This what the great almighty piece of shit replied to me:

wenqing...u think so lowly of her meh? that my words could actually make her do all those things? i would expect her EX to know that sheryl feels and has a brain that decided for herself...and her heart too...u sadly dont realise huh? and ya its not about me la dey...lol..and im amused le...u said that i was childish and yet! and yet this childish guy wif the pea brain was able to make sheryl do all those things? wierd huh? wenqing..lol...insults dont hurt me dey...really...im smiling reading what u replied...it srsly shows no concern at all for sheryl, her feeling, her heart, her love life, her life..her wadever la..lol...i know u felt glad sending me that:) i hope u were...pumped you ego huh? oh well... and yea~ ive nvr been in a r/s but sheryl herself will and can tell you if she bothers to la! lol! that she is a million times happier than she ever was... and so expain to me how this r/s virgin was actually able to make sheryl so happy? LOL...u cldnt even do that when u were wif her la...THIS IS ABOUT SHERYL DUDE! SHERYL! pause~~~~~~ SHERYL YES! NOT YOU! LOL! remind yourself...not about me? not about you? not about her sis? noting...sheryl. my words influencing her? nah... im like an empty gun...u know? an empty gun cant kill without that bullet...ya... sheryl chose to load that gun and fire...sheryl's heart decided wenqing...u can defiantly get angry and upset and scold me..i mean im glad youre taking your anger out on me and not sheryl...srsly man... its sad to see how youre reacting and how u dont seem to see that sheryl doesnt want u in her life anymore and YET you being the wenqing she cldnt stand, continually insist on your way...OH CMON~ u know what im talking about...i hope u wake up dude...saddening to see...take care!

and i replied him this:

Just answer to the topic! a single one word reply! A yes or a no. that is so simple to do and you could not understand? i dont need your education here at all. what the point of educating me? it helps? NO. thanks for being so kind. i am angry with your reply? hardly at all. insulted you? yes i did and that suits you very much. and i dont care if it hurt you or what. i dont need a r/s virgin to educate me on doing things. i am not angry with sheryl or what. it does not concern about her now. now that you are trying to educate me, it is between me and you. from the start is about her. till you replied back, it isnt her. i could not make her happy when with her? you dont know anything at all. our relationship is just 2 years? isnt it 2 and 1/2 years? just how long did you freaking know us? 1 and 1/2 years only. tsk tsk tsk tsk. you know nuts at all. i dun need you to wake me up at all, seriously i have woke up. i dont you to do it for me. dont come put words in my mouth. OH? a childish guy with pea brain didnt poke his nose into sheryl problems? Didnt poke nose in every single thing? well, think about it. in your heart, you know you did. but your mouth can just say no. you didnt tell her to move on all this? never mention forget all about him all this? when i still with her, you didnt keep on tell sheryl how sad is marcus all this? you didnt tell her that marcus this la that la blah blah blah. you didnt? you need to tell her all this when we are together? why are you behaving so childish? tsk tsk tsk tsk. when you are so so so so so so so damn pro in r/s, why is your love life in a mess. could not even get your crush. why is it so complicated? why? all your dreams crush by your crush? please know where you are standing, is about me and you now. you are insincere to help then dont come put words in my mouth and dont come teaching me how to things. maybe at first i need your help, now i rather do everything on my own rather than asking you. you prove to be more trouble than helpful. please settle your love life then come and educated me.

and he replied:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA I WHERE GOT LOVE LIFE SIA?! I GOT CRUSH MEH? LOL!

and me :

dont lie to yourself. you can choose to deny it. you know it best yourself


TO (J) THE SHIT, WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO EDUCATE ME THINGS. WHEN YOU DONT EVEN KNOW A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT US. PLEASE DONT PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH. AND NOW IS NOT ABOUT SHERYL ANYMORE IS BOTH OF US NOW. POKE YOUR BLOODY NOSE INTO YOUR OWN SHOES BEFORE POKING INTO OTHERS.

To her. I went so low to get myself all the shit in order to get you back. Being mock by others, being EDUCATED by a shit. Seriously why did i do all this things? When she dont even bother at all. She really break my heart time after time. She did think that break up will wake me up. Yes i really did. I asked her today. She got think hard about patching back last time, when she think of break up. The answer was no. What in the world cause her like that? Lots of people say that when one mention break up, they will also think of patching back and stuffs. Even articles online all prove to be similar. What change her totally? Yes i know is my fault. But there is a moving force behind her to push her to change. JUST TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED? Now her every single actions are just killing me softly each day. Friends also cannot be. Best friends also cannot. Cannot even contact each other. Cannot even meet each other. Delete me away from facebook, so that i cant view her profile and status. So what stunt is she pulling? I know both of you are progressing fast. Addressing each other status and all, when still not together. She didnt even think about it hard. Did she think she is under influence by all of them? NO. Other people's adivse just dont prove much to her. But theirs just did. Why she didnt have the guts to answer my mum's call and message? She scare? What did she do that made her so scared? What can i do now? Cry? I cant even cried out anymore. Move on? It is not easy and i cant do it too, she is the girl i love her with my whole life. All i can do now is just watch over her as her guardian angel. Hope that she do well for her exams for now. Blinded and deafed she is, helpless and powerless i am. That all i have to say. FATE? WHERE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU MOST!