Pain

I don't have much to say. Everyone is not going against to her, they understand us. they know what we been through, they want to help us. I only can say everyone especially your poly friends are all against me. What they know? What do they understand about our love? I cant blame them, i am the cause of it. Will she understand the pain i feel? Physically, mentally and emotionally? Will she care about it? Fate will bring us back again. I will prove it to her no matter what. I pray hard that she will listen to my advise. There is too much sadness and pain bottled inside me. I am the one to blame, is all my fault. My heart is shattered to countless pieces. I love her a lot. I will prove to her and love her every single day. As her best friend i will shower her with unconditional care and concern. It is just too heartbreaking to be in this state.