Why cant she see the truth?

I cant sleep well after seeing her personal message on msn. There are way too many things in my mind to handle. There is too much pain in my heart. Why cant i let it all out? Who can help me? Who can see the pain I am in? Who can feel the love i had for her? What did she sees in M? Why fatal attraction? Why? Deep down i have this strong gut feeling that M is not the guy for her. It is not because that i refuse to give up or what. I have this strong gut feeling. She doesn't like guys with long hair at all. After what he did to her before? Why? M did all this now because he has her poly friends supporting him. They filled him up with all her troubles, he knows what she lacks of now. That why she can fill the loss of that 'something' from M at this point of time. But i did let her feel the loss of her 'something', she could not feel it. The 'something' is love, i trying my best every day to do it so that she can feel it. But why is this happening? Poly friends talk to her and she took their words so serious. And consider it hard without other people's advise? Why? I help i caused a lot of hurt time after time to her and that why she will be like that. But i meant everything i said when i went on my knees to beg her, meant everything i did from my heart to make her feel my love. Why is she so smitten by M? Why? Did she feel the 'stand in' love? Why? After what he did and she believe in M? What happening to me? The pain i feel now i have no words to describe. I know she use to do things to please people, and she is free from relationship. She is still tied down by it. Why did she have to please M after what he did? Will she listen to my words from my heart? Will she listen to her mum and sister? Will she listen to her sec friends? Will she listen to her poly friends? The thing is no matter what we do, we still end up pleasing other people. I really lose out on this. Her poly friends' influence on her is too strong, even took their words into consideration and she consider it and set my heart clear. Isn't that pleasing them? I know M sure advise her to move on and all, isn't that pleasing him too? Your mum and sister and sec friends ask you to give me a chance, if she did i know she is pleasing them too. I came on my knees and begged you with everything from my heart. What i did was out to please you, out to win you back. If you accept is still pleasing me. In every ways is still pleasing people. I know times like this, she has lots of things on her mind. I just hope she will not blinded just by one group of people helping her. Hope she will think it hard about everyone's advise. M came in and got all this help from them and know her situation. Don't she think is way too fast? The gut feeling in me is strong, M isn't the guy for her. If we compare a relationship of same duration, two years. Case one : First case is mine, the temper start to raise up in the later part of relationship due to the closeness that we felt to each other that all our faults start coming out. She keeps give hints and chance for me to chance. I took it for granted time and time. She is hurt eventually. Case two : If she is with M. Since he has come in both of us relationship before. It shows that M does not know the limit of himself. M confirm will still go into other girls relationship and life and ruined it slowly. He did double face her, bad mouth her when she told him to stop contacting each other. What if M went telling other girls and guys, that she this and that? She is what and all behind her back? Which situation is more hurtful from her? She is blinded by the fact. My gut feeling is very strong. As her best friend, i hope she listens to my advise. As someone who still love her a lot, i hope that she still listens to my advise. Partly I cant bear to see her with a guy who did all this to her and i cant bear to see her get hurt. Why am i doing this? I used to be the guy suitable for her, I fitted all her requirements and everything she needed. But my temper screws it up and i am stupid enough to slowly change. I swear to god that M is not the guy for her. Without her poly friends' advise and help, will M know what happen? Will M know what going on? Why is she so blinded by one side? I really cant explain the pain i feel now. Why is all this happening? Why is there so much pain? Why? Why her actions are pushing me nearer to the edge? Why did she feel like that? Why is she in such situation? Why no matter what i do cant help her out of this situation? WHY? She is not being pushed around by others. They are trying to help her. They meant her well. I know most of them are against me, but i really pray hard that she will give me a chance to show her. I am sorry for causing her to be in such situation. Especially now is a crucial time for her. She cant concentrate on her exams. Why? I wish i could just end it all at this moment. I really wish i have the power to turn back time. Why is there so much pain and sorrow now? Did she ask how how i am i feeling? How is my injuries? Why all this is happening now? Does M and her poly friends know how we last till this very day? I have gone to the lowest and showed her my love. I really hate myself! Why did let her suffer that much?